I will be 61 next month. I could not imagine that I would live until this age. I am happy to be younger looking for my age.
But I have been asking my self if I am mature enough to be my age. I wish I could be deeper , understanding and thoughtful person for other people. I guess I should accept my reality and I will try to be closer to my ideal personality step by step.
I am grateful for my husband and 3 children. Because of them, I could become a wife and mother.
If I could have an another chance to restart having babies again, I could be better mother.
I think most parents think this way. But I am sure I received a countless gifts though raising up my children.
Most parents think this way as well.
My family members have made me grow as a wife and mother stretching my heart. I think I can give a reward to my self. It is because I tried so hard to be good wife and a good mother making a lot of mistakes.
I remember my mothers word before leaving Japan. 'When you become parent, you will find out your parents' heart.'
As a being parent, I can understand little bit Heavenly Parents heart (God's heart) as well as my own parents.
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What is a Family?
When we study the meaning of the family, it is written a garden of house in Chinese character.
Parent and siblings in a family are like the colorful varieties of lovely flowers in a garden. The family should be a joyful, singing and dancing. If family members fights each other, the garden will become a wilderness. When a flower hears harmonious music it grows well. but if it hears discordant music it cannot. The same goes for a family. When its members hear the melody of love they can grow wonderfully. What makes them do so is the heart of love.
In a family there are parents, husband and wife, sons and daughters; and there are word surely other relatives living around you.
It is not mere words that unite them. It is not money that draws them together, nor the the necessity of living and eating together. Sharing the same house does not guarantee that family members will get along well. It is mutual affection, no matter who is older and who is younger, that allow them to overcome the difficult of life together, in unity. Vertical and horizontal, left and right, front and back; within a family all these relationships are harmonized through the love not only of mother and father, of husband and wife, of brothers and sisters. but also of grandparents and grandchildren. The family with love as its core is foundation upon which each of its members bonds with others, moves and acts. A family is based on love. ~True family in Cheon seong gybong
